I am sitting in the plane leaving NOLA and headed back to BNA. I am at a place where my mind is racing and I can’t write down my thoughts quick enough. I am excited. I am exhausted. I have a window seat with the view of the vast sky and a sunset full of color. I have been given a glimpse of beauty.
You see, beauty isn’t the flawless skin of someone. Or the perfect lighting setup. Beauty is in the moment.
I really don’t know where to begin and I am afraid I may even jump all over the place and not make any sense at all. But there’s this small voice inside of me that keeps telling me that it’s really okay. Because it’s not about perfection or pleasing everyone else. It’s about capturing all the details, the moments and documenting them so that later in a day, or a year, or even a decade, I can look back and “feel” it all over again and perhaps others will feel it too.
I am me. You are you. We are each unique. With different qualities and flaws. We are all different. One of us is not better than the other. I am simple. I live a simple life. I have my passions. My family. My photography. My God. And I have a peace within me. Have I been lost? Absolutely. I have been judged? Yes. Have I been broken down and remolded like Ashley? Absolutely. Just in a different kind of detour. But it’s all those moments, trails, connections, experiences and emotions that make us who we are.
I came to PartnerCon 2010 as one person and I left as another. Yet, reaffirmed that I really didn’t need to change. It was okay for me to just be me. It may not make much sense to you but it couldn’t be more transparent to me.
I choose. I choose to capture life. I choose to photograph the little ones playing ball because makes me smile from within and often laugh.
I choose. I choose to do something for someone else because it is what my heart yearns to do. I choose to give Ashley a piece of me. Photographic moments that she can look back at and see her story at that time and place in her life.
But, really, she has given me so much more. More than I ever can.
PartnerCon 2010 wouldn’t have been on my path if it had not been for many little things…
My learning of Teen Identity with Tasra Dawson through the PPA magazine. The weekend in Atlanta at the Suwannee Book Fair with her team and family. The dinner talks with Ron Dawson. My openness to share where I was/am as a photographer and my life. Ashley. The filming and invite from Jim Collins, CEO of Pictage.
All these pieces that completed the puzzle. Creating an image in my mind that I will always treasure.
An hour and half of flight time has gone by….unbelievable. I have been writing this entire time and I have yet to begin. I am almost home. I am stopping for now. Because you see, my amazing family awaits me…